It started when you lost him; you lost him in an accident. You called up my husband saying, “He is dead; it’s all my fault.”
We rushed to come to you; for some reason, I could feel your pain. Just looking at you, watching you hurt. My heart sank. I wanted to just be there for you, in any shape or form.
I guided you, telling you not to keep reliving the story by telling people. We grew closer than ever. I cheered for you when you were up on the stage holding the banner your dead friend gave you that made you perform with Jacob. We cried together. It was magical and eerie.
You started messaging me every day. Opening up to me about who you love, your raw feelings. Asking me if I will be okay if you date someone? Saying I am your number one, your favourite person. You Best Friend.
You bought me the most expensive gifts, which required no occasions at all. I felt so valued. You were so good to me. You were so close to me.
Ever since we learnt, Your crush (my sis) has a bf. You walked away from me?
I feel used, taken advantage of?
You have pushed me away
And it’s my heart that’s breaking…
At the thought of you not in myself..
Me not in your lifee…
Me not in your close list
That you do not think of me
That you do not care anymore
That this may be the end…………………………………………………….
